I don’t think the fact that i’m going around the world for 9 whole months has really sunk in until this week. fear has swooped over me. i am anxious. there are so many things i still have to do. so much money to be raised, and so little time to do it. i am running around busy and my time is constantly filled with other, less important things.
i am scared! i keep on thinking “what in the world am i doing? this is crazy! i can’t leave for that long. im not going to see my family or friends for 270 days!! “
i have been thinking a lot about the future. but every time i do, the Lord tells me “It’s in my hands eliza. be still”
it’s so hard for me to be still when there is so much going on.
there is so much stress on my shoulders, but the Lord takes it and puts it ALL on his shoulders
I was recently reminded of the verse that we taught the kids in Uganda during kids camp:
Joshua 1:9
I can still hear their little African voices saying it::
-Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.-
Courage was the theme of the camp that we put on. We told the kids to lay their fears out infront of the Lord and he would take them in His hands. Just like the kiddos, Lord I ask you to take my fears and use them for your glory. Take this fear and help it to spread your kingdom in ways i don’t know possible.
I graduated a little over a month ago, and as a gift, one of my aunts gave me a giving key. In case you haven’t heard of them, they are these key necklaces that have a word on them, and you wear it and take it with you wherever you go, and if you meet someone who really seems like they either need the word the key says or they already posses the characteristic of the key, you give it to them. My key says the word “fearless.” As I continue on this CRAZY journey, I hope that that word sticks in my heart. I hope that now and in the future, I am a fearless advocate for the Lord, no matter the circumstance.
If you’ve made it this far, THANK YOU! I really appreciate you taking the time to read!
Have a blessed day!
x eliza
